wannabe photographer..

went to McD yesterday night.. I'm not gonna upload Ashroff's photos because I took photos with Kennard's camera... now i wanted a camera.. but it's so expensive and i'm sure mum wont buy me 1..haihz..
what if 2012 is gonna happen?? would you spend money to buy ship ticket or just stay here and die? i think i'd choose the 2nd option... you would be lonely if you buy tickets and go to an unknown place... I'm scared of death, but what to do? the Earth is getting angry... so now i'll do everything i wanted to do(i'll try, still need to courage...).. so i wont regret later..
okay so pictures i took using MACRO.. =)

lying on the sofa, looking at it... this is the second book, and i'm gonna use the third book.. O.o

trying out the NEW function(to me) -- MACRO

love this one!

haha, sis's parrot.. =)

keep quiet, OR ELSE...

MCDONALDS~I'M LOVIN IT

went to Mr. Tan's tuition yesterday... he got dissapointed with us for not doing his homeworks.. i felt sad... and i also felt lucky and glad because i have a teacher like him.. he's so...hmm..how should i describe...responsible? yea..VERY VERY responsible.. and he loves his job so much.. i really dont know how to describe.. i kinda understand his feelings... when you really put in a lot of effort in doing something, and someone else doesnt appreciate it.. IT REALLY HURTS... i think i've gone through something like this, but i forgot when... hahaha..
and yay! tonight going to McD with kay,weiying,mich,emily,jasmine,ken and ashroff! i havent seen ash for a long time.. really really miss him a lot.. =) although i have only known him for 2 years plus? but friendships dont rely on that right?
today is already SATURDAY... and tomorrow is SUNDAY..and the day after tomorrow is MONDAY=SCHOOL DAY=ASSEMBLY=SPOTCHECK? hahahaha.. not sure... i hate that..really really hate that.. i cant say i hate the prefects, coz they're following the teachers' instructions.. why must they always check this and check that? nothing better to do?!?!
and, english oral test will be starting on monday too!! ohgosh...(i thought of using an arab word i learnt yesterday during mr.tan's class, but i forgot...) STAGEFRIGHT=MY OBSTACLE.. i cant speak properly when i stand infront of the class.. i dont know why, although i know almost all of my classmates, but there's something blocking my voice to come out smoothly.. haihz... i really wanted to overcome this... but how?? =(
okay, wanna watch drama! wheeeheee....
annyeong~ see ya later qin gu ya!!

LALALALALALA~ cant think of a title..

today is thursday! actually it's supposed to be a lovely day, but the presence of tuitions make today kinda boring...
yesterday went for korean class, and yea.. it becomes more difficult compared to last level..(i'm not going to use the word "hard" because Mr. Suresh said the paper is not hard, it's soft, haha..) but i think if i have the interest, then it will be much more easier.. anyway, it's definitely easier than school subjects.. how i wish i could attend all language classes, like French, German etc etc.. then i dont need to learn sejarah, moral... HAHAHA! IT'LL NEVER HAPPEN, FOREVER...
just finished part of my school's homeworks.. i'm getting lazier and lazier.. i really hate studying... but i still try to study hard, because...that is my duty... haihz...
This morning, i was thinking about my ambition.. but cant really think of any... i thought of being a musician.. but... i'm scared... i know i shouldnt be scared, coz if i always feel scared of everything, i wont be able to do anything.. YES, I NEED TIME... TIME IS PRECIOUS.. but i seem to be wasting a lot of time.. hahhaha.. WHATEVER!! i want my studying life to be fun, not boring.. but it's kinda impossible... i know NOTHING is impossible, but, there's still pressure around me... I dont know why some other students can get super good results even they didnt pay attention at school, maybe they're genius or they have a big brain like Albert Einstein... but i dont have, so that's why i have to work harder.. I do, sometimes, get jealous, but no point keep on getting jealous and not doing anything.. so if i'm born to have a small-brain, then i should just accept it.. okay, i'm talking like a old woman.. STOP! hahahaha
annyeong higyeseyo~

no outing?? =(

today parents went out for medical checkup, left me alone at home.. it's boring, but feel like kinda free..=)
watched autumn's concerto, the part where Mu Cheng was forced to leave Guang Xi because of his SELFISH mum! sometimes i really hate her, why is she manipulating their relationship? it's MuCheng and GuangXi's relationship, not hers and GX's... why is she so busy body and selfish?! really wanted to punch her face..(haha, joking..i'm not that violent)
okays.. so now what? hmm.. i feel like going out, especially ice skating.. but a lot of my friends cant make it.. so guess has to postpone it until june holidays? aihz... it's after the mid year exam, you know, MID YEAR EXAM!! all 10 subjects.. IF I CHANGED SCHOOL, I WILL NOT NEED TO STUDY SEJARAH!! IT IS REALLY KILLING ME!! so it has pros and cons... i just have to accept it.. =)
i'm gonna start a new drama.. it's either Endless Love or Paradise Ranch... drama-marathon!! whee~~~
btw, really love Autumn's Concerto.. i dunno why am i so obsessed with that drama, it's just so obsessive... hahahah!
annyeong~

praying~~~

before i start, for the "mixture of feeling" post, i wanted to change something.. there's a line where i typed, i'm kinda happy coz my friends actually will miss me.. dont misunderstand... not to say that my friends are cold-blooded or evil.. it's just that, i always thought that i'm insignificant... it's like, no one will care about me.. yea i know i'm negative.. so i'm really happy when i have a bunch of friends like them.. =)
okays, so let's talk about the Japan Earthquake+tsunami... it's magnitude increased from 8.8 to 8.9 then to 9.0... seriously , i felt very sad... when i watched the news, i'll think of 2012... it's so...scary...the houses just float on the water, like jet-house? and the cars are moving because of the wave... it's getting serious as the nuclear plant explode.. the air in Japan now is poisonous and dangerous for the citizens there... i hope this earthquake will end as fast as possible... if not, the number of dead ppl will increase really really fast...
suddenly i love malaysia.. ONLY because of the climate... there's no earthquake or tsunami YET... if i'm in Japan, i'll be very very afraid and will only cry all day long... cant even imagine..=(
finished Mr. Tan's karangan bergambar, left with chinese essay which need to pass up tomorrow... will write it tomorrow after my piano tuition... so many tuitions during this holiday la.. it's like homeschooling during the holidays... if schooling days means homeschooling+schooling... HAHAHA... i dunno what am i talking..
i'm crazy.. teehee!

cut my hair! T.T

AHHH!! cut my hair just now... actually only cut about 3 cm.. BUT, the barber said my hair was unhealthy.. so gotta cut shorter.. so sad... even though i didnt wear specs, i saw my long hair was cut by the sharp scissors... and then it dropped onto the floor... my hair~~ i havent even say goodbye to them..
luckily they didnt cut it super short, i still can tie my hair... like in form 2, i think... haihz... now my head is like, super light... haha..not heavy as last time..=) but my weight didnt decrease.. =(
OHMYGOSH!IHAVENTDOMRTAN'SHOMEWORK!!ANDCHINESEESSAY!! felt so lazy now... haihz... i need someone to talk to, but i'm afraid i'll waste their time listening to my craps.. sorry if i've been selfish or evil or mean...

mixture of feelings....

I'm feeling sad now... haihz... why does this kind of things always happened to me?! always having a hope in the beginning, then at last things will be vanished... IF SOMETHING WONT HAPPEN IN THE END, WHY GIVE ME SUCH A HIGH HOPE?? this happened for more than 3 times already! why always wanna torture me with this? maybe good things just wont happen on me??
well...i'm talking about changing my school... actually planning to go ace-edventure.. but i think, i'll keep the money for college.. but still, i really wanted to go ace... i'm so excited about it at first, but when i decided not to go, i felt down... it does has good points for not going to that school(tuition), but i still need time to go back to normal..no worries, i'm still a human being.. XD yea so.. i guess i just need the time...
when i told my friends that i might be leaving, all of them were like, so sad... i'm kinda happy coz THERE ARE people that will miss me... awwww.... love them forever!!
so now i get to stay with them, it's a good thing right? yea...think positive...TRYING...