Sometimes, I just feel like I am a useless person.
I tried hard, but I still failed.
Not hard enough I guess.
I need to build up a metal shield then.
Sigh I feel no good. :(

So someone actually reads my blog occasionally HAHAHA (yes I am talking about you)

Just finished my semester exams, and I am quite certain that it will be bad. Real bad. This makes me so sad but at the same time motivated me to study harder. :)

Holiday starts but I can't really go out with friends like in high school. All of us have different holidays on different days. SIGH :( really want to go out with them but... what can I do?

Watched Ah Boys to Men(pt 1 and 2) yesterday. IT WAS GREAT! so touching and funny and meaningful. Really cannot stop laughing while watching it. Jack Neo (Y)

I am typing this with a hungry stomach so I shall eat my dinner now.

BUH BYE.

Certainly gonna blog during this sem break hehehe

Sometimes, it is not that I take jokes too seriously, nor I am very narrow-hearted(?), but everything has a limit. You wanna tease me for fun, I don't mind because I do that too(ofc to close friends), but don't judge my personality if you don't know me well. Judge yourself, or just go and study law if you like to judge so much.

I am not the old me anymore, I won't keep quiet if I really can't stand it. If I am unhappy, I will tell straight in your face. So if I don't, that means I don't really mind. If I do, you don't get angry because it will be better than keeping it in my heart and smile fakely infront of you.

#badmood

Believe.
It's a strong word.
Strong enough to either knock someone down or lift someone up.
Maybe, I am trying to look for someone to believe me.
Believe that I am capable of doing something.
But for that to work, I have to put in a lot of effort.
A lot.

These days I just have the urge to do volunteering jobs, and also sports. Heh I have changed. For the better. ;D

But I hope I can balance them with my studies.

These few days I have been wondering why didn't I be active in Sports, and now I think I sort of found out one of the reasons.

Mum used to say this to me :" be careful, don't injure your hand, later you can't play the piano anymore." Maybe this is why she doesn't really asks me to learn sports, like learn from a coach. I don't blame her, it is quite true though, but now I really want to take up a sport and learn it from a coach. I think it will be fun ;D

Went to work for the first time yesterday, the kids are so cute, I can see future handsome lads in my class HAHAHA it was tiring but quite fun too. Looking forward to the next class.(I hope so HAHA)

Gotta study now so thats all. Heh ;)

By the way, I really think that I can sense something really easily sometimes, women's instinct HAHAHA

안녕!

Hello, I am here again to blog before class haha this time it's before Maths class. ;)

Today is not a good morning, few things happened straight within half an hour.
1) snoozed alarm and continued sleeping, luckily mum woke me up.
2) few minutes I left my house, realised that I didn't bring my lab coat, ran upstairs and got it.
3) after wearing my shoes, realised that I forgot to bring hairband, took off shoes and went into my room to get it.
4) in the car,water bottle's cap not tight, water spilled out and wet my pants and shirt and my books.
5) want to sleep but someone in the car shown me a zombie photo -.- (but I still managed to sleep for a little while. :D )
6) thought I charged my phone yesterday night, but the plug wasn't working, so now my phone battery is only 32% :(

I hope there will not be any more for today.

Tired.
Feeling weird, physically and mentally.

Twitter is too open these days, so I decided to blog like I tweet HAHA. Since not many people know I blog. Just wanna spill stuffs out without people thinking that I am annoying. (SO THIS IS THE PURPOSE OF BLOGGING! HAHA)

Sometimes I am thinking, am I a burden to anyone else in this world? Like they can't wait for me to get out of their sight. if yes, I am so sorry to be a burden. I just wanna make friends that I can trust and tell them all my problems. Like an ideal best friend(like ideal gas, everything is perfect HAHA) but it seems impossible. Best friends have their lives, have their problems too. They can't handle two persons' problem at a same time, too tiring. :(

Some people are really realistic, you are smart/get good results/hardworking, they will stick to you. If not, they don't really care about you. But these aren't real friends, are they?

I don't want to isolate myself with others, like what I used to do in primary school/high school. But, you won't know what others are thinking inside their heart(or brain?). One second they are good towards you, another second they changed their attitude.

Early in the morning and I already have so much thoughts. Pfft I shall continue my Chemistry studies. TOMORROW TESTS OMG

PS: I really feel sad for not being able to go to the camp. Really.

PPS: I really thank WeiYing and KayKay for going to the camp with me when I was form 2, first camp in my life and I love going to camp since then
I wonder when can we go to camp together again. ;)