Hmm I don't like to have the feeling that I am the only ones who cares/remembers.
It feels like everyone has abandoned it, threw it away like a rubbish, and there is only me who treasure it like gold.
And when you talk about it, no one cares. They are like, mehh that's nothing.

Weather changes, people change, you change, I change, too.
At one time you thought you know him/her well.
Now, you barely can understand what is hidden in their words.
At one time, he/she used to talk to you(not chatting,like ask about stuffs that they want to know about you).
Now, he/she doesn't even say HI to you when they saw you.
At one time, he/she was the friend whom you talked to the most.
Now, both of you are like strangers.

Stepping into college life makes me realise that making good friends isn't easy as you grow up. It isn't impossible, but just not easy.

Nick Vujicic says to love everyone in your life. I am trying. :D
Love doesn't mean giving hugs/kisses, it is just giving and taking, and also putting yourselves in their shoes.
(Okiambeingsoidkwhattodescribemyselfsoishalljuststop)

Continue studying. :)

Stayed at home today instead of going to college.
Did nothing except watching tv and lying down.
Oh wait I wrapped my books! (Like finally)
Lying down on the sofa, doing nothing makes me feel good, it's not boring, it's relaxing. :)

Dad:"later if you are free, vacuum the floor since the kakaks are not coming this week, then I mop the floor at night. Ok?"
Me:"yeah okay."
Dad:"you know how to use the vacuum cleaner ornot?"
HAHA COME ON DAD. ofc I do!

"When was the last time your dad says 'I am so proud of you'?"
Hmm he never did? Or maybe, they never did.
They are happy when I achieved something, but they didn't really say that.
Am I asking too much if I want them to just praise me and give me a hug, instead of just 'wahh so clever' and period? Idk why but it feels like they are just 敷衍-ing me. Sighh :(

Once something has happened frequently, has it become a routine as well?

I shouldn't be sad on these little things right? So what if no one acknowledges me?
I know. God knows. That's enough. :)

Still have got lots more to learn.
Life.

Love.Intelligence.Faith.Enthusiasism.

Ok I just simply made that out. Hahah

Off to vacuuming the floor! Vrooommmmm xD

"I perfectly love the imperfect me." -Nick Vujicic

Nick was in Sunway campus just now and gave a talk in the University Hall, Sunway College. :)

I never thought that I will cry/get teary while listening to his talk. I tried to not let my tears roll down as I was in college, haha I shy. xD but my tears just rolled down as he was giving the talk.

These are some of what Nick had said and some made my eyes got teary.
-What is the purpose of teasing people? 80% of the people in this hall thought of commiting suicide because of other people looking down on them. So what is the strength of teasing others? There is a chance that they suicide because you teased them.
-I don't live to die, that's such a waste. I want to raise people up, not look down on people.
-When was the last time hearing your dad said 'I am so proud of you?'
-'Your parents will be much more happier if you don't exist.' '...you are a burden to them'
-there was this girl who told me "I just want to tell you that you are looking good today." This made my day and she was the reason for me to be strong, knowing that there is at least one person to be there for me. A reason to not just live to die, but to live life to the fullest.

There are more but I can't remember them for now.

Overall the talk was really good. I really salute to him and admire his determination. It is not easy to live in his world, but he made it. *big claps*

I even bought his books after I saw the booth, I think that it is worth it :)

Time to live life in a better way. Hehe

Sometimes, I just feel like I am a useless person.
I tried hard, but I still failed.
Not hard enough I guess.
I need to build up a metal shield then.
Sigh I feel no good. :(

So someone actually reads my blog occasionally HAHAHA (yes I am talking about you)

Just finished my semester exams, and I am quite certain that it will be bad. Real bad. This makes me so sad but at the same time motivated me to study harder. :)

Holiday starts but I can't really go out with friends like in high school. All of us have different holidays on different days. SIGH :( really want to go out with them but... what can I do?

Watched Ah Boys to Men(pt 1 and 2) yesterday. IT WAS GREAT! so touching and funny and meaningful. Really cannot stop laughing while watching it. Jack Neo (Y)

I am typing this with a hungry stomach so I shall eat my dinner now.

BUH BYE.

Certainly gonna blog during this sem break hehehe

Sometimes, it is not that I take jokes too seriously, nor I am very narrow-hearted(?), but everything has a limit. You wanna tease me for fun, I don't mind because I do that too(ofc to close friends), but don't judge my personality if you don't know me well. Judge yourself, or just go and study law if you like to judge so much.

I am not the old me anymore, I won't keep quiet if I really can't stand it. If I am unhappy, I will tell straight in your face. So if I don't, that means I don't really mind. If I do, you don't get angry because it will be better than keeping it in my heart and smile fakely infront of you.

#badmood

Believe.
It's a strong word.
Strong enough to either knock someone down or lift someone up.
Maybe, I am trying to look for someone to believe me.
Believe that I am capable of doing something.
But for that to work, I have to put in a lot of effort.
A lot.

These days I just have the urge to do volunteering jobs, and also sports. Heh I have changed. For the better. ;D

But I hope I can balance them with my studies.